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Love.

Hmmm...

Approval, Acceptance, Belonging --- >

Is it possible to be an individual while constantly trying to fulfill these "needs"?

We let these ideas seep into the cracks of our soul and eat away at whatever individuality we once had.

Life Happens.

Silence,

The needle drops

A familiar crackle, my ears tingle in anticipation

That first note, with its old time style

Send good vibrations rushing through me, It knocks me off my feet

When it stops,

Neither wants to move, To break out of this moment

Though with the flip of a hand it will continue, the thought of a disconnect is unappetizing

The needle drops again, for hours this series continues

Like the best part of a movie playing over and over,

There is nothing mechanical about it

I want someone to make me laugh

Not just a little chuckle or a snicker
I'm talking a belly roll
A laugh in which your body is convulsing uncontrollably
Tears are streaming as if someone opened the flood gates
The kind of laugh that forces me to slump to the floor in pain
holding my stomach and trying to massage my face into relaxation
I probably look like a crazy person
In this moment, I'm ok with that
I would rather look crazy then hold it in and go crazy

A Moment.

I wish I could paint you a picture with my words, hoping to capture the essence of a beautiful moment.

I wish I could describe the feeling of the tall grass tickling my legs as I forge upward.

I wish I could describe the moment as I reach the top, the sun blinding, and as I shield my eyes
I suddenly feel warmth, and the sun swallows me.
As I sink to the ground, grass tickling my face, I smell wild flowers flowing as freely as my blood pumps, and in that moment there is nothing else.

I wish I could describe the chill crawling towards me as the sky streaks red and pink shooting in every direction, yet so perfectly placed.
As the sun sinks lower the warmth I felt is being stolen by the night.
I walked back down the hill with the smell of wild flowers and sweet grass lingering behind me; stars start to appear and the night chill sets in.

I wish I could describe the joy I felt as suddenly I broke out into a sprint, running down that hill away from a perfect moment, tripping and laughing as night rolls in.

I wish I could describe it all to you, and that through these words you could experience this moment with me.

24 Years Of...

A couple years ago I was working at a coffee shop. One of the regulars came up to get a refill He noticed I had been working mostly morning shifts and asked me if I was in high school, I looked at him and said no I'm not in high school. He continued to try and figure out, " are you in college or something?" No, I'm not in school. "Well what is it that you do?" I live and work at a coffee shop, and a youth camp. "Oh Well.. you should do something with your life." Then he turned around and walked back to his table, That same table he sat at every morning. I was speechless. I've never been so insulted. My day was ruined. Who was this man to tell me I should do something with my life? Why did his words effect me So much? He didn't really know me after all, I just smiled and served him coffee every day. And what was "Something"?

I went home thinking about that, and I concluded that I was satisfied with my life. I was satisfied with where God had me. It also helped me realize that I did want to start pursuing Life.

Look at me now! 24, Single, Jobless, and a great outlook on life. Quite the catch! ( I actually just got a job as a full-time Lift Op.) But to be completly honest, I have had quite the year! So many changes and challenges and things learned. I sat down the other day and made a list of some of the things I've learned/ Accomplished in the past 24 years. Let me just say that none of these things could have been accomplished by my power alone.

Accomplishments

1. The ability to make myself laugh when there is nothing to laugh about



2. High School



3. Never had a Job I didnt love



4. 1 year @ Bible College



5. Learned Guitar



6. Made the soccer team at CCU



7. Traveled



8. Been out of the country 2x



9. Learned To cook!



10. Make coffee drinks



11. bought a vehicle



12. Swift Water rescue 50 degrees, nothern WI, may! yes.



13. Been in a musical...ha.



14. writing



15. Lifeguarding



16. Rafting Guide



17. Working w/ At-risk youth



18. Live on my own

These might not be a "Normal" list of things for 24 year old to have accomplish, but I wouldnt change it.

Somethings I've learned.

1. God is in control



2. People cannot always be depended on



3. Be Yourself



4. Life is an Adventure, you can't plan it, it just happens



5. Pacience



6. Its OK to be alone



7. Everone had flaws, some are just easier to see than others.



8. If your not satisfied with where God has you, you wont be satisfied in anything



9. Owning a vehicle Sucks!



10. Toofs are Funny



11. Physically hurt people make me feel awkward



12. Emotionally damaged people are intriguing



13. People are selfish



14. I love taking care of people



15. God is Good



16. 55% of people smoke pot



17. Look for the open door



18. Dont Settle...Ever



19. Family is The most important thing

There is more but I doubt many people will read this far... so I'll stop. haha.

24 Years Of... LIFE.