Life.

Friday, November 4, 2011

A Moment.

I wish I could paint you a picture with my words, hoping to capture the essence of a beautiful moment.

I wish I could describe the feeling of the tall grass tickling my legs as I forge upward.

I wish I could describe the moment as I reach the top, the sun blinding, and as I shield my eyes
I suddenly feel warmth, and the sun swallows me.
As I sink to the ground, grass tickling my face, I smell wild flowers flowing as freely as my blood pumps, and in that moment there is nothing else.

I wish I could describe the chill crawling towards me as the sky streaks red and pink shooting in every direction, yet so perfectly placed.
As the sun sinks lower the warmth I felt is being stolen by the night.
I walked back down the hill with the smell of wild flowers and sweet grass lingering behind me; stars start to appear and the night chill sets in.

I wish I could describe the joy I felt as suddenly I broke out into a sprint, running down that hill away from a perfect moment, tripping and laughing as night rolls in.

I wish I could describe it all to you, and that through these words you could experience this moment with me.

Monday, October 31, 2011

24 Years Of...

A couple years ago I was working at a coffee shop. One of the regulars came up to get a refill He noticed I had been working mostly morning shifts and asked me if I was in high school, I looked at him and said no I'm not in high school. He continued to try and figure out, " are you in college or something?" No, I'm not in school. "Well what is it that you do?" I live and work at a coffee shop, and a youth camp. "Oh Well.. you should do something with your life." Then he turned around and walked back to his table, That same table he sat at every morning. I was speechless. I've never been so insulted. My day was ruined. Who was this man to tell me I should do something with my life? Why did his words effect me So much? He didn't really know me after all, I just smiled and served him coffee every day. And what was "Something"?

I went home thinking about that, and I concluded that I was satisfied with my life. I was satisfied with where God had me. It also helped me realize that I did want to start pursuing Life.

Look at me now! 24, Single, Jobless, and a great outlook on life. Quite the catch! ( I actually just got a job as a full-time Lift Op.) But to be completly honest, I have had quite the year! So many changes and challenges and things learned. I sat down the other day and made a list of some of the things I've learned/ Accomplished in the past 24 years. Let me just say that none of these things could have been accomplished by my power alone.

Accomplishments

The ability to make myself laugh when there is nothing to laugh about

High School

Never had a Job I didnt love

1 year @ Bible College

Learned Guitar

Made the soccer team at CCU

Traveled

Been out of the country 2x

Learned To cook!

Make coffee drinks

bought a vehicle

Swift Water rescue 50 degrees, nothern WI, may! yes.

Been in a musical...ha.

writing

Lifeguarding

Rafting Guide

Working w/ At-risk youth

Live on my own

These might not be a "Normal" list of things for 24 year old to have accomplish, but I wouldnt change it.

Somethings I've learned.

God is in control

People cannot always be depended on

Be Yourself

Life is an Adventure, you can't plan it, it just happens

Pacience

Its OK to be alone

Everone had flaws, some are just easier to see than others.

If your not satisfied with where God has you, you wont be satisfied in anything

Owning a vehicle Sucks!

Toofs are Funny

Physically hurt people make me feel awkward

Emotionally damaged people are intriguing

People are selfish

I love taking care of people

God is Good

55% of people smoke pot

Look for the open door

Dont Settle...Ever

Family is The most important thing

There is more but I doubt many people will read this far... so I'll stop. haha.

24 Years Of... LIFE.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Nurture.

You wake up in the morning with intent
And go to sleep at night with accomplishment
Its not the feeling of companionship that drives you
Its not fear of being alone, Its the simple fact that someone needs you and depends on you.

But.

What if you didn't have someone who depended on you? Where would you find your purpose then?
People grow old and die, or leave, they are never going to need you forever.

There is only one consistent thing in your life.

What If.

You could wake up every morning and go to sleep every night feeling content.
And its not because someone depends on you
Its because even though He doesn't need you or depend on you...
He Still Wants You.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Coconut Blueberry Bread. Yum.

I love Coconut and Blueberries together, I also have an awesome recipe for coconut blueberry smoothies, Ill post it sometime.

2 cup Flour

2 tsp Baking Powder

1/2 tsp Baking Powder

1/2 tsp Salt

1/2 cup Brown Sugar

1/2 cup Coconut Oil

1 can Coconut milk (must be canned)

2 Eggs

1 TBS Vanilla

1 cup or more of Blueberries

Bake @ 325 For 60 mins or until done. Eat! Yum Yum!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Bada Bing Bada B00m.

Why worry? I completely understand why people worry, and why people let worry, anxiety, and fear run there lives; We've all been there.
The feeling of being so overwhelmed is suffocating, its like drowning without water. This world at times seems like a hopeless place, but it is what we make it to be. Fear of the unknown, worry about finances, and anxiety of living up to others standards, at times rule our lives. It distracts us from finding the beauty in things.

The great depression had to be one of the most tragic events in history to live through. Depression has aspects of fear, anxiety, and worry all rolled together onto one. To name an event that covered an entire nation, The Great Depression...that's some heavy stuff.

This thought Process all started with me wanting to "Fix" people or have the right words to make someone feel better. Sometimes its better to say nothing at all and just... Be. Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. (Romans 12:15)

If there are two things I've learned in this life so far its #1 I cannot "fix" people, I can Be. #2 God is greater, and that is my only escape.

“For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
“So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

(Matthew 6: 25-34)